Sitting here with the windows open, listening to old Elton John on vinyl (Tumbleweed Connection) and sipping cranberry juice and grapefruit flavored vodka, catching the most pleasant "I love everyone" buzz.
I wonder if the buzz will turn into a need for silly texting. dunno. Just riding the fun wave, I suppose.
This place, this LJ environment, is interesting. Most of my friends list are now old friends who have seen me through at least a couple of years of the adventure, some for a remarkable time even before that. The comfort I have with this group sometimes makes me forget that newer folks might not understand me at all. I make that mistake from time to time, letting down my guard too soon and baring my life to someone else's scrutiny. When people take a step back from me, it reminds me of how unique I am.
And that's ok. I'm not everyone's cup of tea. But for those that don't judge me by some sane, pastel yardstick, I do find some wonderful companions. I don't follow convention. I don't behave in ways that everyone approves of, and while I enjoy praise and approval, in the end, I do things for me and mine, and not for the acceptance. I push the boundaries. And I stay true to me, with the occasional reed bending to help someone adjust on occasion if they are special. I've learned that compromise is not a four letter word and love is stronger than ego.
I learned again that I have a huge capacity for forgetting transgressions with a genuine, well phrased olive branch.
I love to surround myself with valiant souls. The rare and the amazing. *tight hugs*