In my mind's theatre last night:
Brian and I were heading to a store with Jen & Craig. I got distracted by a young man with a guitar, playing under a canopy. I sat to listen for a bit while everyone else went into the store. The young man teased me gently, correctly interpreting my far away look. I was both mildly embarrassed to be so opened to a stranger, and thrilled to have someone just know.
...some stuff I don't recall...
The night ended at his home with his family. His two toddler children came to say goodbye. Such charming little tow heads. I got the most sincere hugs and cheek kisses. They stole my heart. The young man smiled at me and hugged me close. Told me that everything was wonderful, and that he was so glad to have met me and gotten to know me. I felt so grateful to have someone understand what was in my head and heart.
This dream left me feeling balanced and grounded again. I can hear his voice in my head telling me the one thing I've craved hearing that has eluded me for months. "You're worth it." And for the first time in nearly a year, I realize that I am indeed worth it. It's really dumb for me to have put so much weight to not being worth the effort to just a few people, when so many more remind me that I am. Now I remember too.