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21st-Apr-2008 05:21 am
On Saturday, I paid $9.99 plus tax for the best bit of psychological therapy I have ever had.

It came in the form of a new paper journal. I haven't hand written a paper journal in a while and what came pouring out in the first five pages really helped clear my head and see what I need more clearly than I have in years. The only thing I need to do at this point, besides continue using this journal, is to maintain forward momentum.

Now, it's entirely possibly that this breakthrough was brought on by the phenomenal day that was Friday. I did an hour presentation that I developed myself for a training group that got mad applause. There was about 140 miles in a top down convertible on an exquisite April afternoon/evening. There was good, intelligent company and lots of affection (all rolled up in one spouse).

In other notes, pansies have been planted, seeds have sprouted, and my writing desk has been cleaned and prepped for use. alchemuse, see...I did listen and then I did follow through.
21st-Apr-2008 02:15 pm (UTC)
Yay! I am so glad you are feeling better ;)
21st-Apr-2008 02:36 pm (UTC)
nice (: i keep catching myself eyeing paper journals, but i've yet to find one that screams "this is it."
21st-Apr-2008 11:33 pm (UTC)
I knew that I wanted something that I would like seeing the cover on, but I was insistent that I find something on Saturday. I looked around Border's for a while, and found a couple I kinda liked, one that I really liked (but didn't want to spend $25 on a blank book that would be filled with mental regurgitation). I saw one that I kept looking at, but didn't pick up, it was black flocked floral on frosted clear plastic. I picked up one next to it that was kind of a floral scrollwork black on grey, but I didn't like the pages. I finally picked up one that was a 60's type of Peter Max floral with black and white and color blocks, but it wasn't the colors I would have chosen. Then it hit me. I picked up the black flocked one and knew it was the right one. I brough it home and took the set of fancy color Sharpies Jen got me for my birthday and gave it exactly the color scheme I wanted! Now it's uniquely mine!

22nd-Apr-2008 07:16 pm (UTC)
That is brilliant! What a beautiful result.
23rd-Apr-2008 04:33 am (UTC)
i saw that one (at the borders in flint) last week (: your version is much prettier than the one in the store.

curious: do you pick journals with lined pages, or unlined?
23rd-Apr-2008 10:00 am (UTC)
curious: do you pick journals with lined pages, or unlined?


I have one that is unlined for when I don't want to write on structured lines. I can get the book comfortable in any position and write or doodle or...or...anything that feels like it needs to come out.

The ones with the lines make doodling less appealing, and tend to be only verbally creative.

Don't limit yourself to one...that's just silly!
21st-Apr-2008 03:06 pm (UTC)
I've decided that when I go to Africa in the fall, I'm not going to bring anything that requires power. So the palm pilot will stay home, and my travel journal is going to get dug out for the first time in years and go with me. I'm really looking forward to writing in it again, propping it on my knees as I sit by a campfire. :) I'm much more introspective when I'm writing long hand than typing, but I rarely make the time to do it in day to day life.
21st-Apr-2008 11:34 pm (UTC)
The worst part of you going to Africa without anything that requires power (while ultimately an awesome thing) is that the rest of us have to wait for you to get back to see any of what you see. Alas, we will endure! *grins*
22nd-Apr-2008 02:42 pm (UTC)
I've always found that when friends go on vacation, the time passes really quickly, but when I go, it passes slowly cause it's so packed full of stuff. I'll be back before you know it. :)
I've heard tell that there are quite a few internet cafes in Tanzania... we'll see how the rates are, it might be worth it to post a "still alive, made it to the top and down" type message. :)
21st-Apr-2008 10:53 pm (UTC)
i've come to the conclusion that livejournal, and all blogs for that matter are bad for writers. At least for those of us who keep journals. It's just a big show. too much about ego, or external validation.

I started writing again on paper with a pen about a year ago. Back to having a handful of empty books around to write in. They are like mysterious little boxes, begging to be opened and filled with treasures, or to hide bad things. You can't do that on a computer in front of the world.

I'm glad to hear that you are using a pen, and putting words down on paper, and that it has already started to have the magical effect that only comes from seeing that line of ink leave its trail on a clean sheet of paper.

21st-Apr-2008 11:11 pm (UTC)
Do you realize when you say things like "too much about ego, or external validation" that you're saying I post too much about ego and do it for external validation? It's like you're passing judgment when you do that and that grates on me.

Let me put it in perspective. It would be like me replying to your post on your journal when you posted about getting WOW and commenting about how little respect I have for gamers and that I can't believe anyone would piss away their time on them when they already aren't living up to their potential. If it's something that you enjoy, I don't feel the need to impose my heavy handed opinions on it.

I want to just focus on the rest of your message because it's a far better tone than the first paragraph. I like journaling electronically because then at least I'm writing something. It's worse when I don't write anywhere. But there are things that I will write on paper that I would never type onto the computer. So it is a totally different result. The flow is more stream of consciousness than the careful way I craft an electronic post.

And I agree, there is something mysterious and alluring to a book of blank pages. It's wonderfully intense. And I love breaking that "I'm afraid to make the first mark" phobia and get started penning.
22nd-Apr-2008 03:48 am (UTC)
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