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Schrödinger's Pussy
Observing a box has never been this much fun
I'm so dizzy, my world is spinning, like a whirlpool it never ends... 
12th-Dec-2007 08:56 am
I'm kinda spinny-spinny today. Took a little extra melatonin last night in an effort to get more than 6 hours of broken sleep. This morning I feel drugged. I'm beginning to think that I honestly do best with a solid 6 hours than if I sleep longer than that. I look forward to how alert, inspired and creative I am from the hours of 5 am - 11 am. Today I suspect I'll be plodding through the day spending more time attempting to get inspired and motivated than being inspired and motivated.

Getting some of the crap out of my brain the other day really helped me put the frustration out of my way. It left me far better equipped to relax and enjoy my day. It's a challenge to balance the need to bite at shitty behavior, steel myself against my buttons being pushed, and still not call people out in public. But letting it fester inside in an effort to spare confrontation just makes me a snarly beast. There is a balance to be found, and while many times I can walk away, sometimes I simply can't.

I got my hair trimmed and re-streaked yesterday and I'm quite pleased with it. It's shiny jet black with shots of blood red and burgundy throughout. A little more sleek than bold. I rather like the change. If my eyes didn't look zombie-like, I'd take a picture and make a new icon.

In the time it took me to type this, I finished a cup of coffee, and I'm starting to feel more alert. This day is going to be very influenced by music.

Today feels like the kind of day to start something big and important. I see it's designated as a "No Spells" day, so that means project work. Maybe I will tie up some loose ends, call some things "completed."
12th-Dec-2007 12:35 pm (UTC)
yay project stuff. What all are you working on?
12th-Dec-2007 12:46 pm (UTC)
My current biggest project is deciding what Brian and I can study together. Sure, sex magick sounds like a fun idea (innocent face), but we're considering systems that would allow us to explore together.

He's studied Golden Dawn, I've gone the BOTA route. I need to see if he'd be interested in BOTA, or if we want to go a completely different route altogether. I have forever been wanting to do something with the elementals, since that intrigues us both, but for that I need to find some sort of system already out there for us to look at for future adaptation. I've not come across anything yet.
12th-Dec-2007 12:51 pm (UTC)

Can I ask you more questions? :D

maybe i can creatively collaboratively...play around with some ideas with you. That would be really fun and I am excited about you working more mojo!

I'll never forget your mind weasels.

You mentioned GD and BOTA. What appeals about those systems?

What natural magickal flavors do you each resonate with?

where are you at with your lives and what you are wanting to bring in/work on?

What is the goal?
12th-Dec-2007 01:12 pm (UTC)
Ask away!

Golden Dawn: There were several rituals I first learned there that set me on my path of LBRP and Middle Pillar work. Those are still things that Brian and do on a regular basis, though not as a group activity.

BOTA: I loved the good, long hard look at Tarot as a meditation device and how it ties into color work (a passion of mine) and Hebrew mysticism. I love the healing work they promote.

Brian is an ordained druid priest (ages ago) and prefers quiet work of an earth nature. I resonate with fire and weather energy.

We're in a very comfortable position right now with life and each other. What we want to do is feel more connected to our spiritual sides and more grounded.

I would say that our goal is to reconnect with our spiritual sides and continue to generate an energy that sustains and energizes us. I'm big into healing, and he's into protection.
12th-Dec-2007 01:38 pm (UTC)
I'm big into healing, and he's into protection

i'm not exactly sure why, but seeing that made me smile. (:
12th-Dec-2007 03:50 pm (UTC)
so more grounded
and more in touch with one's spiritual side.

i understand the first one. The second one is more complicated...it could pertain to a lot of things.

what would that look like for each of you?
12th-Dec-2007 04:02 pm (UTC)
Brian wants to be in better control of his inner energies.

I want more of an awareness of the flow of energies and to get that "connected to everything" feeling I misplaced somewhere.
12th-Dec-2007 04:43 pm (UTC)
Melatonin leaves me a with a foggy drugged state the next morning too, especially if I have to be up early. Kind of weird.
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