I feel as though I've been in a rainstorm for the last few years. It abated a little while ago, but was still saturating me. When you get that thoroughly soaked, it takes a long time to dry off. Well, anyway, that's what it feels like. My spirit felt waterlogged, sluggish, and non-responsive.
Lately, though...lately I've been finding myself feeling genuinely full of joy. More than just happy. I have as much stress as ever, but manageable...things that will ebb and tide in intensity. I'm not crazy that I still feel so guarded and suspicious of its staying power. But I'm noticing these moods more and more and they feel like wonderful old memories. They are coming more often so I think I'm getting back to that state of mind being the normal for me.
All I can really say is 'it's about fucking time.'
- Tags:shiny thing
- Mood:For those that know me, yeah...he's that wonderful *wink*