I like finding patterns. When you discover a pattern, you can start to zoom out and see a larger picture of how things are connected.
I'm seeing a pattern, but I can't seem to zoom out on it and see that big picture. It seems to be one of those that images that flips back and forth.
Am I so damn intimidating, so parental, so judgmental that people closest to me choose to lie rather than disappoint me?
Do I choose friends that do not value telling the truth?
Or have I just made friends with people who make life decisions that they know are harmful and/or stupid and would rather lie to someone who cares deeply for them than take responsibility and own their actions.