I need a good cry, but I don't want anyone to see that I've been crying so I just keep it in.
It's so difficult because this is my father-in-law who is struggling against the cancer. I'm not his child, but I love him as though I am. I don't want to see him suffer, but I don't want to let go. I'm just the spouse, so I don't feel it's fair to burden them with my pain, because how could my hurt be near what they must feel.